I am at Ease
What puts me at ease?
Not deadlines. Not leaving things to the last minute. Yet, I am writing this blog a day before the deadline, after volunteering to write something over a month ago. I had an incredible idea for this blog that I was very excited about, and when that fell through, I was left feeling uninspired, frustrated and totally not “at ease.”
Not deadlines. Not leaving things to the last minute. Yet, I am writing this blog a day before the deadline, after volunteering to write something over a month ago. I had an incredible idea for this blog that I was very excited about, and when that fell through, I was left feeling uninspired, frustrated and totally not “at ease.”
So, after much balking, stomping my feet, bargaining, and trying to pawn off the task on other colleagues – I finally sit here, take a deep breath, and in an effort to brainstorm, write a list of what makes me feel at ease. Here it is:
- A cup of chamomile tea (2 tea bags, depending on the day)
- Writing a silly poem for a friend
- Coming home to a clean apartment
- Palo Santo
- A long walk home over the High Level Bridge after a busy day at work
- Elaborate avocado toast
- Abood (my cat) snuggled on my lap
- Sitting in my “secret spot” in the river valley
- Forehead kisses
- Talking to a friend when my mind is cluttered
- My morning meditation with movement and many hip circles
- Facial extractions (popping my clients pimples)
- Singing myself the blues when I can’t sleep
- Gazing at the moon
- Spa days
- Reading my favourites poems & prayers
- Solo dance parties in my living room
- A hot bath with candles and a perfectly curated playlist
- Waking up knowing I prepped the coffee pot the night before
- A sad song
- Writing lists of things that make me feel happy/ that make me feel grateful
- Remembering that: Life is short, I will die, everything is impermanent, and it’s truly the little things that make a life so special.
Reflecting on all of this, I now smile and chuckle at myself. I am reminded I don’t have to take myself so seriously. I am grateful for this amazing life with all of its joys and challenges. And just like that, I am at ease.
Annie
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